It's About Time.

This is the first weekend that I've actually been able to kick back. Technically, there is still a GAZILLION things I could be doing house wise, but it's nice to get to a stage where I can actually relax in my own home and enjoy the space even though it's not finished.

I'm loving the fact that I have an outside space... and I'm getting excited about buying a tree for the garden when I can find one which is happy to live out of a pot. Also, I'm experimenting with a few fruit and vegetable plants in the garden- just a few to start with and we'll see what happens. So far I have planted- strawberries, potatoes, pea, peppers and tomatoes. I guess this is what happens when you turn 28 and have a house. :-)

I've had an awesome but busy few weeks and to be honest the bank holidays have done me a LOT of good. I feel replenished. It's amazing what a few days off work can do. Equally amazing how bad for your health work is!

The result of a pretty awesome April is having absolutely NO money left. I have a mere £100 to last until payday. That could be interesting. May's going to be equally busy but far less fun... though I do have two little rays of sunshine amongst the mass of training courses that work is sending me on: Derren Brown's Svengali on May 9th and Maybeshewill on May 17th. I haven't been to a gig in absolutely-ruddy-ages so I'm going to use this as a Download warm up. Speaking of which- I have about 6 weeks to get everything together and prepped for my first festival in 9 years. I still have no tent.

There is just SO much to do... it's a good job I'm such a good list writer.

Whacked.

I am so. freakin. tired. I've spent two evenings trying to clean the house and it looks no different than before... if not worse. I have a party to go to tomorrow night. I have internal doors to paint, plus three coats on our back door. I need a haircut desperately but cant afford one. I have parcels being delivered to various places all over town. I have a wall to decorate; A party to buy for, prepare for, tidy for and plan; An unfinished Sonos set up; Over £600 owed; A broken Shower to fix or get replaced; A centrepiece to design and make in two weeks; A house to fully clean and tidy; Two rooms to straighten out; a costume to finish; three birthday presents to buy; a washing machine which is NOT making the right sort of noises; a day of cleaning at work tomorrow to look forward to plus a party to go to in the evening. I have spent the last two weeks single handedly running the show at work... and steadily getting more and more of a desire to leave. I'm also training another member of staff- a mere 6 weeks under my belt and still learning myself- and now I'm supposed to be adequately train another member of staff?! My head is constantly buzzing. While it's nice to be out of my seat and away from my computer I feel like I've walked miles and miles and miles this week. I probably have. I take the stairs about 5-6 times a day, of which there are 6 flights. I also had to go into town at lunch and I'm walking to and from the train station daily. The weather is mild, it's beautiful some days- but I feel too bogged down to actually feel good about it. If I could just stop time and have a really really good night's sleep... I reckon I might just be able to handle this without having a heart attack or an emotional meltdown.