Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Try Not to Worry.
Apparantly, this is a big year for me. No shit!
According to a colleague who loves her astrology, this year is one of big decisions and major changes. Apparantly. And apparantly this is all down to Saturn.
I think it's because I'm turning 29, am unhappy and need changes to try and get my head and my life in order.
It's scary, uncomfortable and I think this year in many ways is going to be intensley painful... but I'm trying to be positive and honest with myself as to what I need and want.
Trying not to worry is one of the hardest things for me. As a naturally anxious person, telling me not to wory is like telling me not to breathe. It happens. On it's own. I do worry... all the freakin' time! But I'm trying to let that go... that it's okay that I'm worried, but that I need to just trust that things are going to be okay in the end. I am not a weak person and I need to trust in that. I need to also stop worrying too much about being hurt, or hurting others. Those things hold you back... and I don't want to do that this year.
I have big things happening right now. I can feel it. Some bad, some good, but all experiences that I know I need to go through in order to sort my head and heart out. They may work, they may fail, but it's necessary. Today, despite the anxiety I feel, I looked out of the train window to the most intensely colourful and beautiful sky I have seen in ages. Despite all the impending stress and potential pain... I felt peaceful.
And when all is said and done... I can always blame Saturn if it all goes wrong.
According to a colleague who loves her astrology, this year is one of big decisions and major changes. Apparantly. And apparantly this is all down to Saturn.
I think it's because I'm turning 29, am unhappy and need changes to try and get my head and my life in order.
It's scary, uncomfortable and I think this year in many ways is going to be intensley painful... but I'm trying to be positive and honest with myself as to what I need and want.
Trying not to worry is one of the hardest things for me. As a naturally anxious person, telling me not to wory is like telling me not to breathe. It happens. On it's own. I do worry... all the freakin' time! But I'm trying to let that go... that it's okay that I'm worried, but that I need to just trust that things are going to be okay in the end. I am not a weak person and I need to trust in that. I need to also stop worrying too much about being hurt, or hurting others. Those things hold you back... and I don't want to do that this year.
I have big things happening right now. I can feel it. Some bad, some good, but all experiences that I know I need to go through in order to sort my head and heart out. They may work, they may fail, but it's necessary. Today, despite the anxiety I feel, I looked out of the train window to the most intensely colourful and beautiful sky I have seen in ages. Despite all the impending stress and potential pain... I felt peaceful.
And when all is said and done... I can always blame Saturn if it all goes wrong.
Tuesday, January 03, 2012
2012
I had an odd Christmas this year- lovely but reflective.
I have some tough and huge decisions to make this year based on the below:
I want to really strive to be happier.
I want to make more time for creativity- sculpting, photography, embedding myself back into the cultural landscape by visiting people, places, art galleries, gigs.
I don't want to feel like I'm wasting my time or my life this year- I want to make things count and make the most of the amazing friends and family I have.
Whilst I'm not the most confident person in the world, I'm confident in my values, my beliefs and opinions and what is important to me.
I need to try not to get bogged down with things- politics etc. I've had a very angry, stressful year and I need that to stop for my health and wellbeing.
I was given an awesome diary for christmas as a gift. It's called "2012 Masterplan for World Domination" and it gives me little tasks for each week, and certain days e.g Practice your evil laugh day! There's also a manifesto each month which I should seriously try and complete. I feel like it's really going to help me through a tumultuous year.
Deep breaths. It's all going to be okay.
I have some tough and huge decisions to make this year based on the below:
I want to really strive to be happier.
I want to make more time for creativity- sculpting, photography, embedding myself back into the cultural landscape by visiting people, places, art galleries, gigs.
I don't want to feel like I'm wasting my time or my life this year- I want to make things count and make the most of the amazing friends and family I have.
Whilst I'm not the most confident person in the world, I'm confident in my values, my beliefs and opinions and what is important to me.
I need to try not to get bogged down with things- politics etc. I've had a very angry, stressful year and I need that to stop for my health and wellbeing.
I was given an awesome diary for christmas as a gift. It's called "2012 Masterplan for World Domination" and it gives me little tasks for each week, and certain days e.g Practice your evil laugh day! There's also a manifesto each month which I should seriously try and complete. I feel like it's really going to help me through a tumultuous year.
Deep breaths. It's all going to be okay.
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