So, I can finally swallow without having to physically build up to dealing with the pain! Woohoo! My tonsillitis is finally on the way out! ... which consequently means I am back to work tomorrow. Well, for two days at least, and those two days are spent on two training courses so it's not too taxing.
Last week was full of headaches (which seem to also be easing although the odd twinge remains and I'm relying less on ibuprofen and Panadol); swollen glands; razorblade throats and white tonsils... but it's also been tinged with a bit of maternal stress.
My beautiful leopard gecko Gizmo has stopped eating. She's had NO food for well over three weeks now and has lost weight. I took her to a reptile vet on Friday where she was X-Rayed and given a once over but nothing no explanation could be found. The vet said she looks otherwise healthy and to her she didn't look underweight yet but I'm still so worried about her. The vet gave me a course of antibiotics which has been a bit of a mission administering to her via syringe but I haven't seen any improvements. I've tried changing the food type- no interest in locusts, crickets, morio's or mealworms. I've tried cutting the legs off the hoppers to make it easier for her to catch- still no interest. I've got to take her back to the vet in a few more days if she's still not eaten and I'm panicking as to how much the next steps could cost since she'll require intensive tests and a stay at the vets. I've even begged with her... but she just blinked at me. As well as all this, I get the impression she no longer trusts me since I've had to handle her every day and each time I have it's been to put foul tasting stuff in her mouth - causing her more stress. So not only do I feel like a bad mum because she's ill; I feel like she hates me for it too.
Being a Mum sucks.
Other things that suck:
- Weddings everywhere
- Valentines fucking day
- Loads of films being out at the cinema and having no one to go with.
- Not being able to go to my friends wedding party because of my dickhead ex being there.
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As much as you may find it strange seeing your ex there, you should still go. If not for your friends, then to show your ex that even though they broke you down you are bouncing back stronger. No better revenge than living well x
I am living well. Which is why I don't have any interest in wasting a SECOND feeling negative in his presence. I have NOTHING to prove. I haven't done anything wrong and I can hold my head up high and say that I simply have no interest in seeing such a shit of a being. I've made the right choice for me. ME for a change.
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