Deflated.

There really isn't a limit on just how let down you can feel. 

I'm contemplating being tougher, colder next year or at least appearing to be. Faking it and just hoping it will become reality.

Just when you think you're rid of someone from your life, they claw back one way or another. I'm now potentially going to have to cut out large portions of my life this year just to move on. Beginning to wish I'd never been moved to Sutton with work. Right now, I want to forget this year existed.